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MY ADDICTION



Based on a True Life Story
I was about the age of 11 when my dad brought this video cassette titled "Nurse"  (those days when video cassette players were the 'in' thing) out of curiosity, I decided to check out what's the content of the video cassette (curiosity really does kill the cat). I wasn't entirely shocked at the content of the player when the tape rolled, I mean I had seen a couple of pornography movies with my friends in school on their phone, but seeing this in the house bought by him kind of made it look acceptable (so that means it is not that bad after all) I watched the movie over and over again, amazed at how interesting it is to devour each other's body as such. But being extremely careful that other member of the family don't see me or catch me watching it.

 I got stuck to the world of pornography and I would wait till everyone is out of the house before I start watching, I would watch till I sometimes fall asleep sometimes (laugh out loud)...I got caught a couple of times by my older brother who would punish me for watching the movie  (but heck who cares) I mean what does he know. I would constantly look forward to going home and continue my adventure into the pornographic world, I mean I wasn't hurting anyone in the process. 
My Addiction grew to the next level after my high school when I'd buy numerous porn movies and watch different men and women devouring their body at will just to destroy the CD immediately I finish watching it, because now I know it is not acceptable by others and heck I don't want to get caught, so I would rather waste money than get caught; and not knowing there and then the demons that I was unconsciously welcoming into my world. Even the CD seller soon recognized me, I became a constant customer and he would beckon on me each time he had new collections (keep in mind, they are all hidden new collections).

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This yearning continued and grew into a habit which later became an awful addiction. I became so entwined in pornography that at first, I watched it just for the entertainment but it developed into constant masturbation (covers face) I would satisfy my own sexual wanting by myself with the help of other people on the screen. Now, I have grown into a woman that would watch other people being satisfied just to satisfy myself and the devil had become a permanent resident in my life. This addiction and cravings became a lifestyle until I understood the stand of God concerning pornography and masturbation... Why am I sharing this you ask? There are a lot of people out there like me, suffering and smiling in silence, being defeated constantly by the chains of pornography and masturbation but you need to run to Jesus, the Author and Finisher of your faith because He is the only one that can help you break away. Now, am I saying that I have totally broken away from the chains of pornography? The answer is NO but I am making a conscious effort to make Jesus my rock and defense in all these. The weapon of our warfare is nor carnal but mighty through the pulling down of stronghold. Which means that to break free from the stronghold of the devil, we need to run to the only one that the devil is scared of. 

 Remember, NO MATTER WHAT IT IS, GOD IS READY AND WILLING TO TAKE CARE OF YOU, all you have to do is take it to Him. God loves you

Just Writing

An enthusiastically emotional realist. I believe that life is not all about YES or NO but a few Mybes and In-decisions but your ability to figure it out makes you stand out. A lover of God and His ways and I believe that a Hopeless romantic is not bad because we view life in a romantic angle.

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